Feb 20, 2008

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Slice of history vis a vis modern times PDF Print E-mail
Written by Tribune News Service, Chandigarh
Thursday, 14 February 2008

WhThe department of Indian theatre is ready with its annual production and this time it is history vis-à-vis modern times. The play titled ‘Warren Hastings ka saand’ is based on a short story written by writer Uday Prakash by the same name. The play portrays various aspects of exploitation, be it at the hands of the Britishers in the past or Indians at the hands of fellow Indians in the present.

Directed by Kumara Varma of the department, the story revolves around Warren Hastings who comes to India and adapts the culture and later on succumbs to the system and becomes what the system wants him to be.

“The idea is to show that in some form or the other the exploitation continues even after India being independent. Sometimes it is in the form of capitalism, sometimes globalisation and at times when the outside forces capture our markets. But it’s the common man who suffers ultimately”, said one of the actors.

Lord Clive had observed what was happening in the contemporary times more than 200 years ago and his observations were depicted through a powerful speech in the play”, said another. To make it a success, the students are researching, rehearsing and doing everything related to the play themselves from costume designing to lights arranging. The show would be organised at the studio theatre in the department of Indian theatre, Panjab University, from February 14-23 at 6.30 pm.

Dec 27, 2007

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December 27, 2007 20:16 IST
Former Pakistan prime minister Benazir Bhutto was assassinated on Thursday when gunmen opened fire at her vehicle just before a suicide bomber blew himself up at an election rally in Rawalpindi, killing more than 20 people and injuring several others.

Reports said five bullets were fired at Bhutto, one of which pierced her neck. The 54-year-old leader of the Pakistan People's Party was rushed to the Rawalpindi general hospital, where she was pronounced dead.
According to rediff.com columnist Hamid Mir, "Benazir was shot at by a sniper rifle from close range and a few moments later a suicide bomber created the blast to make sure that she is assassinated. It was a determined effort. They made sure she doesn't survive the attack. She died due to the injury in her neck. I was told about it by injured party leader Ibne Rizvi before he went into comma."
"She expired at 6:16 pm," said Wasif Ali Khan, a PPP member at the hospital.

She is survived by her husband Asif Ali Zardari and three children.
Bhutto was shot as she was getting into the car after addressing thousands of supporters to canvass votes for the January 8 parliamentary election. Before her supporters realised what had happened, a suicide bomber blew himself up at the rally at the Liaquat Bagh Park. Several people, who were around her car, were blown to pieces. A television reporter at the scene said the suicide bomber's head was found almost 70 feet from the site of the blast.

Eyewitnesses said body parts were strewn across the area. Ambulances rushed the injured from the spot to nearby hospitals.

Mir said, "Yesterday, I had chatted with her. She was told many times that she carries as much risk as (Pakistan President Pervez) Musharraf. On October 15, (army chief) General Ashraf Kayani and the director general ISI met her in Dubai. They clearly told her that there are forces determined to assassinate her. She thought they were trying to deter her from coming back to Pakistan. I found she was overconfident."
Added Mir, "Her partymen forced her to take risks. They were dragging her from one constituency to other. The threat to her life was so clearly understood by everybody. It was like the writing on the wall."
Liaquat Bagh Park is where Pakistan's first prime minister Liaquat Ali Khan was assassinated in October 1951. Bhutto's father Zulfiqar Ali Bhutto was hanged in April 1979 at a spot not very far from where his daughter was killed.

Benazir Bhutto returned to Pakistan after a eight-year self-imposed exile on October 18. She served twice as Pakistan's prime minister between 1988 and 1996.

Darling of the West

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Charismatic Benazir Bhutto was beauty personified and the Oxford and Harvard educated former Pakistan premier was once on People magazine's "50 most beautiful people list".

Bhutto's glamorous looks and her dress sense, including her trademark white scarf, had made her a media darling in the West.

Bhutto was featured in the People Magazine in 1988 when at the age of 35 she became the youngest person-- and the first woman--to head the government of a Muslim-majority state in modern times.

Jemima Khan, former wife of cricketer-turned-politician Imran Khan, who has launched the 'Free Pakistan Movement' in London, had written a long piece in a British newspaper calling Bhutto, who was  "A Cleopatra in a Hermes scarf".

"She's back. Hurrah! She's a woman. And she's not bad looking either. Benazir may speak the language of liberalism and look good on Larry King's sofa, but both her terms in office were marked by incompetence. Make no mistake, Benazir may look the part, but she's as ruthless and conniving as they come -- a kleptocrat in a Hermes headscarf."

Benazeer Bhutto in Swimming Pool

Pop diva Madonna is famous for flaunting her Hermes scarves along with several other fashion divas.

Bhutto's "diamond studded designer fashion glasses" have also become the cynosure of all eyes. Former railways minister Sheikh Rashid Ahmed had even taken a dig at her designer glasses at a press conference recently.

A senior journalist had once written about her designer glasses: "With her designer glasses and bright lipstick she looks like a young version of Greek singer Nana Mouskouri."

"Bhutto's pale skin, designer clothes and degrees from Harvard and Oxford seem to contradict her self-appointed role as saviour of Pakistan's poor and illiterate -- particularly in Karachi's slums."

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Dec 21, 2007

Amitava

Amitava Kumar's Excellent Adventure

By Vijay Prashad

Every once in a while I make it a point to stop by for a visit at Amitava Kumar's virtual home (http://amitavakumar.blogsome.com/). There's always something witty, something wonderful: an introduction to a new book, or a new photographer, or something about one of his classes. Amitava is an artist who thinks about art and about those who make art around him. When I first met him in another age he was a poet, a photographer and an aspiring literary critic. His first book of poems ("No Tears for the NRI") was published by the respected Writers Workshop in Calcutta (P. Lal who runs the imprint ensures that the best sari borders are used for the handmade covers). In it you will find a gem of a poem, "Primary Lessons in Political Economy,"

"For every ten bushels of paddy she harvests/The landless laborer takes home one.

This woman, whose name is Hiria, would have to starve/for three days to buy a liter of milk.

If she were to check her hunger and not eat/for a month she could buy a book of poems.

And if Hiria, who works endlessly, could starve. endlessly, in ten years she could buy that piece Of land on which during short winter evenings/the landlord's son plays badminton."

Amitava has so far produced three lyrical books of criticism and auto-ethnography, each of them careful to take literary works seriously, but also to inject the author as a character, and his poems, his memories, and his travels (I suggest that you begin with "Husband of a Fanatic," published by the New Press in 2005).

In 1998, Amitava, along with filmmaker Sanjeev Chatterjee, released a documentary entitled "Pure Chutney." If Naipaul's ancestors left Bihar for Trinidad, and if Naipaul then made his own "return" journey to India, "an area of darkness" (1964), in this film Amitava returns the compliment. As the promotion materials for "Pure Chutney" put it, "Bihar is the birthplace of contradiction" and Amitava "is only one of them." So from that location, Amitava travels to Naipaul's homeland to see what it means to be an "Indian"in that island. Thousands of Indians came as indentured laborers in the mid-1800s, and most of them remained after their contracts expired. They formed a vibrant community, with a rich cultural heritage that grew alongside and in-between the cultural world of the Afro-Trinidadians.

Naipaul's early stories (in "Miguel Street") capture the richness of this cultural world, and the poverty of its people (despite the oil that lives under them). Amitava went to Trinidad in the 1990s, when a major political gap had opened up between the Afro-Trinidadians and the Indo-Trinidadians, and when some among the latter had begun to take refuge in noxious cultural-political trends emanating from the subcontinent (this same set of trends, Hindutva, would soften Naipaul's earlier reaction, and make him tend favorably to this upsurge of what he called a "creative force" to undo the "mortal wound" of Islam's presence in the subcontinent).

Amitava's Trinidad is not eclipsed by Naipaul's exuberant turn to an imagined tradition. Instead, he meets a wide array of interesting women and men, most of whom revel in the contradictions of their island. Amitava flourishes with them, dressing up for Carnival, gathering at a cremation site, going for namaz at a mosque, and sitting in the home of an urbane family who are the leading edge of noxiousness in the island. They are the resident representatives of the Vishwa Hindu Parishad (VHP), whose reputation in India is far less mixed than in Trinidad. Here the tragic recent history of Afro-Indo clashes are refracted into a search for cultural purity and distance in the twin directions of Afrocentricity and of Hindutva, of a yearning for cultural distance from each other as the political, economic and social climate of Trinidad molds. The conviviality of ordinary Trinidadians sparkles and it is to this that Amitava pins his hopes. "Pure Chutney" is a set of snapshots of this conviviality, disrupted by the cultural purists. Where it fails is that it does not take us into the world of missed opportunities, of how the accumulation of the oil wealth has distorted the great possibilities of historical connection and everyday interaction that mark Trinidad and Tobago's history. But for a 42-minute film, it does its job.

"Dirty Laundry: An Indian in South Africa" (2005) is the second installment in the ongoing "Other Indias" collaboration between filmmaker Chatterjee and writer Amitava Kumar (incidentally, Amitava has a new novel out in India, "Home Products," whose U. S. release is perhaps next year). This film traces the lives of people of Indian origin in South Africa, with the hook being the struggles of Indians to create the new South Africa. Of course the most prominent India in the long struggle for liberation was M. K. Gandhi, who went to the country as an obscure lawyer in 1893 (at age 24) and left for India as a hero in 1914 (at age 45), where he took charge of the Indian freedom struggle and became the great soul (Mahatma). "Dirty Laundry" tackles Gandhi with reverence, and then uses him as a springboard to document the unheralded struggles of the South Africans of Indian origin in the latter stages of the freedom struggle. We hear of the important role played by ANC member Mac Maharaj (who was with Mandela on Robben Island, and then his Minister of Transportation, 1994-1999; there is an important new book about him called "Shades of Difference"). We meet Laloo Chiba, a member of the African National Congress, of the South African Communist Party and of the Transvaal Indian Congress. Chiba spent eighteen years on Robben Island after he was arrested as a member of Umkonto we Sizwe during an operation to sabotage a railway line. In the film, we meet an older Chiba, a wonderfully warm man who takes Amitava through the contradictions of South African Indian life. The most moving parts of the documentary show this gracious man escort Amitava to Robben Island and walk him around the prison.

He came to this maximum-security island in his thirties and left in his fifties, "left my youth behind me," he says.

Chiba stands in for the South African Indians who fought hard against apartheid. Amitava neglects to tell us that he is a member of the South African Communist Party (SACP). Another person who is often forgotten is Fatima Seedat, who joined the SACP in Cape Town in the late 1930s. With her husband, Dawood Seedat, she moved to Durban, got involved with the Natal Indian Congress and went to jail in 1946 (she was only 24, with a four month old baby). The next year, Fatima Seedat joined the ANC, and was an active participant in the Defiance Campaign of 1952 (she was jailed once again). On August 9, 1956, Fatima Seedat was a leader of the Women's March to Pretoria's Union Building (where the slogan was Wathint' Abafazi, wathint' imbokodo, strike the woman, strike the rock). Seedat was not alone: with her were Rahima Ally, Zeinub Asvat, Zohra Bhayat, Amina Cachalia, Dr. Kesavaloo Goonam, Cissy Gool and so many others. These women are absent from the story, as are the women of Chatworth and other urban slums whose efforts lead the struggles against neo-liberalism in today's South Africa.

The film, less interested in culture than in politics and its impact on society, takes us gently into the world of Jameel Chand. Amitava opens the documentary telling us that he knew little of the lives of South African Indians or of South Africa as a child, and even as a teenager. He knew that the cricket team could not play international matches (because of an anti-apartheid boycott), but the place and its politics had not registered for him. For me, things were different. The anti-apartheid campaign in the 1980s was a central part of my political education. Names like Mandela, Maharaj, Chris Hani, Joe Slovo, Ruth First, Walter Sisulu, Oliver Tambo and others marked my consciousness. But while we organized in the divestment movement and through the Jackson 1988 campaign to push South Africa to the front, three South African Indians entered the struggle in a deeper way.

These are my contemporaries, whose struggle was much, much more serious.

Jameel Chand, Yusuf Akhalwaya and Prakash Napier formed the first and only Indian guerrilla cell in Johannesburg. Between 1987 and 1989, the three of them conducted thirty-five bombing operations as the Ahmed Timol Unit (named after a South African Indian school teacher killed by the State in 1971).

Their unit was first called the Mahatma Gandhi Unit, but they quite correctly renamed it. In December 1989, the unit was on the way to conduct another operation, when their bomb (a Soviet made limpet mine) went off and killed Napier and Akhalwaya, a Hindu and a Muslim South African. Chand survived. The ANC office in Lusaka released a statement after this accident, "Although they came from different religions, the love they had for each other was the highest form of brotherly love." The interview with Chand is tender. Amitava is not his usual self. More serious. Chand and his wife Firhana recount the story. Firhana was married to Yusuf at the time of his death, and only later did Jameel and Firhana take comfort with each other, and fall in love. Their bravery fills the screen.

Jameel Chand now works for Johannesburg Water, where he is on the frontlines defending neo-liberal policies in the water wars. Amitava does not go into this aspect of his life. He remains with the events around 1989. Earlier in the film, Laloo Chiba and his friend, another ANC member of parliament, Ismail Vadi of Gauteng, sit down with Amitava. They talk about the dangers of apathy among South African Indians in general and South African Gujaratis in particular. Vadi tells us that the South African Indian vote has been going toward the opposition parties. "We have not fully understood why," he says, but perhaps this has to do with the youth. The community has "not produced a new generation of younger, critical activists?acting to make common cause with the liberation movement." If this core does not emerge, then the community will commit "political suicide." One of these leaders could have been Jameel Chand, or might be activist-journalist Ashwin Desai (whose presence graces the opening of the film, and whose book "We are the Poors" is available from Monthly Review Press). But they don't count. Jameel Chand perhaps because of his position as a bureaucrat in the new South African dispensation, and Ashwin Desai from the outside, as someone who has lost faith in the new South Africa. That's the limit of the film. Vadi and Chiba give us an astute sense of the gap, but we don't hear from either Chand or Desai for their response, or their analysis of this lack of participation. From Chand we get the powerful story of 1989, and how he has been able to pick up a personal life from the debris. From Desai we get the rage. But we don't quite grasp why neither of them are the leaders that Chiba and Vadi would like to see emerge.

"Dirty Laundry" is a terrific film, a more mature investigation than "Pure Chutney," but easily as enjoyable. Chatterjee's camera lingers lovingly over the South African landscape, the coastline, the veldt, the habitations. Mimi Banerjee's drawings complement Amitava's poem "There Are Monkeys" on Gujarat, and Partho Das' art is a clever way to rehearse Gandhi's South Africa struggle.

I asked Amitava if we could now look forward to more such movies from "Other India." Perhaps a film about England or Germany, Fiji or Malaysia, or even one about the diasporas within South Asia, within India. "Well, I had always wanted to make a film about a place where there was only one Indian, a frigid place in Finland, an Indian running a small restaurant," he said.

"But after 9/11, I've thought that in many places in this country, despite our increasing numbers, a man is alone behind a cash register, and what comes walking through the door is pure evil." Personally, I want to see him walk around the Mall-State of Dubai, and send us a dispatch from the world of the Al Maktoum oil dynasty, of Mumbai's displaced gangsters, and of South Asian contract laborers.

Dec 5, 2007

HOMELESSNESS



Brothers Forever


I always remember my younger brother Bob. There is not a day, when once or twice, his smiling eyes don't appear from the blue and stare at me...asking, 'hey 'baroo, what are you up to? ' He is so lovable, so great and so sensitive....Bob has translated my many poems and short stories in a way as if he had written them. He composes me in his language. He restructures me in his way, in his letters. He re-writes me so amazingly that I wonder some time.... wow...was it me, who did it? Unbelievable..! This is the translation an author can dream of.
Once he wrote -'
had I been born in Chattisgarh in India and Uday (baroo) in LA (US) ...we would still have been the same persons.' This is true.
I met him this year at Virginia, where he teaches my language to his students. He is a scholar of Sanskrit and Urdu beside Hindi. I've two collections of my short stories translated by him -
'Rage Revelry and Romance' and 'Short Shorts Long Shots'.
He has a cool ..serene environ in his backyard with many flowers and plants. Yeah ! there is a small pond too..and you can see Indian lotus blooming there..surrounded from all the sides by American-westerner plants and buds and flowers. ...I'd seen lotus conversing with those flowers in whisper and had seen them playing with unknown colorful tiny birds and large squirrels...
He has four adorable cats and has named them ...Baasmatee, Kaajoo, Mokshaa...( I can't reach to the fourth one! all Indian names ...! )
My angelic and divine friend and a wonderful writer-translator Jason Grunebaum has allergy to the cat's hair so he had no option but to sleep in a traveler's tent in the backyard. hmm... there was then no remedy to Jason's hardships. there was a drizzle in the late night ..and he was there absolutely unperturbed...dreaming his dreams. I went out to see him and find out his woes...and was just astounded to see thaat he was in a deep sleep. Like angels sleep in divinity.
Kids also sleep like this... they dream of peace and tranquility, they dream about butterfly and rainbow colors under stormy skies. (I remember Von Gaugh's painting 'maze under disturbed shy'. It shows fragile and adoloscent maze plant's fear about an in coming holocaust... when you see this painting, you don't remain quiet, you develop an intense longing for peace...you search a whale's tummy to hide your self from the violent madness hovering over)
We celebrated Nazen's birthday next morning and Nazen (meri bahoo and Bob's wife) treated us all with tastiest
'jaljeeraa'...(hmm..abhi tak munh me paanee aa rahaa hai)

I'll write more about Bob soon...

This poem Tibet was written years before. I have seen Tibetan refugees, those lamas....monks passing through my small remote village since my childhood. They would give us children 'meethee golee sugar-balls. We loved them.
It was much later when I discovered -they are homeless. I was born in 1952 and they were driven out of their homes and lands in 1959...

Tibet

Uday Prakash

Having come from Tibet,
Lamas keep wandering around
These days, mumbling mantras

Their herds of mules
Go down into the gardens
They do not eat marigold flowers

How many flowers
On one marigold flower,
Papa?

When it’s the rainy season
in Tibet,
What season
Do we have?

When it’s three o’clock
In Tibet,
What time
Is it here?

In Tibet
Are there marigolds,
Papa?

Do lamas blow conch shells, Papa?

Papa,
Have you ever seen lamas
Wrapped in blankets
Running quickly
In the darkness?

When people die
Lamas stand
On all four sides of their graves
And bow their heads
They do not recite mantras.

They whisper – tibbut

tibbut tibbut....

tibbut tibbut
tibbut...

tibbut

And they cry
all night long.

Do lamas
Cry just
Like us, Papa?
Translator: Robert A. Hueckstedt

Nov 27, 2007

about Mohandas.

The eye of the director

A film need not always be about great sunsets... a poor sunset is perfectly fine if that is what the film requires, cinematographer-turned-director Mazhar Kamran shares with Priyanka Haldipur

Mazhar Kamran knew his destiny from the very beginning— that he was here to be a filmmaker. The path of cinematography (in Satya, Kaun, Jhankaar Beats, and Masti) was a small step that would help him make the giant leap to film direction someday. The day has arrived, as Kamran is ready to showcase his directorial skills with Mohandas which will release in the next couple of months. The film stars Sonali Kulkarni, Nakul Vaid, Sushant Singh, Sharbani Mukherjee, Sameer Dharmadhikari, Uttam Haldar, Aditya Shrivastav, Akhilendra Mishra and Govind Namdeo.

Excerpts from an interview with the newborn director:

Tell us more about Mohandas.

The film is based on a character called ‘Mohandas’. It is an allegory through which we have reflected Gandhi’s ideals, but the film has nothing to do with Gandhi himself. It looks at the issue of India as a nation and does a social and political examination of it, apart from jabs at the notion of democracy and the concept of justice for the common man.

Sonali Kulkarni plays a journalist who comes across a mysterious videotape from a remote place, and she decides to investigate it.

Is the film catering to a niche audience?

I have been a student of cinema for long and have taken care to reach out to people in general and not cater to a niche audience.

The screenplay of the film is by Uday Prakash and the music by Vivek Priyadarshan, both unfamiliar names in the film industry...

It is a low-budget film, but I haven’t compromised in terms of quality. Both individuals are from a non-film background, but are very good at their work. Uday is my close friend of ten years and a well-known short story writer. I knew I could work with him. Vivek’s music went well with my film.We were shooting a scene with Sonali where she enters a guest house in the village. Everyone but her was aware that we were shooting. This was so that I could capture her real reaction to the place on camera.

The support that you received for this project.

I received a lot of support from my star cast and technicians. They were co-operative and worked with all their heart inspite of the film’s light budget.

Your life as a cinematographer...

Very simple. I would just go by what story the director had in mind and decide on the look that the film should have based on that, instead of having an agenda of my own. I tried to do things differently in all my films and saw to it that the styles would not overlap.

Where Bollywood needs to improve in terms of cinematography...

A cinematographer should remember that he doesn’t have to make every movie look fabulous. A film need not always be about great sunsets... a poor sunset is perfectly fine if that is what the film requires.
What other yet-to-be released films have you provided cinematography for? What next in terms of direction?
(Laughs) I have made a conscious decision not to continue with cinematography anymore. I want to immerse myself fully in film direction.

I have a couple of scripts ready, each one in a different genre. I can tell you with confidence that each one of these will be unusual.

Nov 11, 2007

Wriggling out of clutches


Recently I wrote a small write up for the news letter of Sahitya Akademi. I put it here. I have received some calls to write something about my past and childhood for them in detail.

This small piece was written originally in English and now on I feel to write more in this lovely language I’m yet to learn properly.


In all my school certificates and other authorized documents, including passport, my birth date is shown as January, 1st, 1951। It looks momentous and a bit historic. First day of the first month of the year, and that too at the dawn of the rest last half of the 20th century.

However, the truth is, it is concocted and incorrect.

It was my father who did it and shifted my birth whole 12 months backward simply because he wanted his son’s birth in some way to appear ‘historic’. His was the generation which had witnessed how histories and great historic icons were shaped in the first half of the 20th century and perhaps he was one of the later first few lesser beings who started ‘making’ history…. An unknown, slipshod, rural historiographer.

I was actually born in 1952. The date and month as given on certificates are however correct. It was the year when first for time people after independence went to cast their votes thus handed over their constitutional sovereignty to their representative. My father, despite ‘Nehru wave’ at that time, contested the elections and lost because of the two palpable reasons. First, because I was born at a time, when my mother was suffering from high fever and deadly small pox. And second, because my elder brother, who was 6 years old, had terrible attack of polio and became almost impaired forever upsetting my father’s hectic election campaign. I still remember my mother’s insubstantial decree, ‘rajaneeti hamaare liye ashubh hai’ (politics is not bliss for us.) Later on, after more than two decades of my own active political indulgence, I consequently feel the integrity of my mother’s tender sentence, who later died of cancer when I was 12 years of age.

I was then a child by all standards and deeply attached to my mother when I saw death approaching her. First it took away her voice and ultimately at one early morning, picked her up. Same day, when my mother died, I lost a nail cutter, I had used previous evening to polish her nails.


Anyway, I was talking about official documents. It shows Singh Uday Prakash, born in 01/01/1951 at village Sitapur, District Shahdol, Madhya Pradesh. The truth is, when I was born, there was no such province like M.P. on India’s map. There were Mahakaushal, Madhya Bharat, Vidarbha, Vindhya Pradesh and others. Madhya Pradesh was created when I was already 4 years old and I was put in to it by the government. Again, when I was more than 50 years old, a new state and many more districts were extracted from the earlier ones and I now find myself in district Anuppur, M.P. at the border of Chhattisgarh, the newly formed state. And about the prefix of my name –‘Singh’, I have never used it personally for the last 40 years, I’ve never composed a poem or stories using this prefix, even my children do not carry this stigma of caste in their names, abominably I always found it indelibly inscribed even before I start existing in my own name.

Therefore, authorized documents related to me (and to many like me) do not supply the truth. I think, this is the reason that I’ve developed an innate, instinctual and robust skepticism about all sorts of papers known as ‘formal’, ‘official’ ‘authorized’ ‘governmental’ documents.

This could have as well been the genesis of my suspicion towards anything which is known to have authority, political or other sorts of formal power.

I feel convincingly that this innate suspicion inside me is the devil that has wrecked my life but I don’t know how to wriggle out of its clutches

I’ve put my two photographs one with my favorite bicycle and other in my favorite shirt. These two are taken in year 1964 and 65. Printed and developed by me in village.

Oct 31, 2007

I am not unknown


Goodbye
Uday Prakash

I too am riding this bus somewhere
I too would have an autobiography
You too would be a passenger
Having come from another life
You too must cross a threshold
To enter a house of
Inertia, defeat and exhaustion
You cannot know how old my shirt is
How much I like the sky before the rain
How old my dusty ragged thoughts are
How the silence of my failures and suffering
Is held in these books in my bag
I too have a silence that always remains silent
On the far side of which people come and go
Up and down, shoulders swaying
With the dry withered throat
Of my lost senseless soul
Filled with the total darkness of the river
In my eyes that grasp for breath like
Fish pulled from the water
Today I’ll say Goodbye
For the first time
So defeated
So alone
The rest of my life
I’ll see your sad back
Getting off at a stop unknown
Leaving me far behind
As all the kerosene lamps of childhood
Sooner or later leave
Everyone on the road going away
And return to their own city
Forever far away.

Translated by Robert A. Hueckstedt.
(Note: The Hindi original appears in the collection Ra¯t me˜ ha¯rmoniyam (New
Delhi: Va¯n.ı¯ Praka¯s´an, 1998), pp 139–140. Translation copyright c
2001)