I study myself but can't percieve.
I'm so addicted to feeling that
I lose myself if I'm distracted
From the sensations I recieve...
This liquor I drink, the air I breathe,
Belng to the very way I exist:
I have never discovered how to resist
These hapless sensations I concieve.
Nor have I ever ascertained
If I really feel what I feel.
Am I what I seem to myself - the same?
Is the I ...I feel the I that's real?
Even with feelings I'm a bit of an atheist.
I don't even know if it's I who feels.
Alvaro De Campos, (Heteronym of Fernando Pessoa)
THE JADED SENSATIONALIST