I study myself but can't percieve.

I'm so addicted to feeling that

I lose myself if I'm distracted

From the sensations I recieve...

This liquor I drink, the air I breathe,

Belng to the very way I exist:

I have never discovered how to resist

These hapless sensations I concieve.

Nor have I ever ascertained

If I really feel what I feel.

Am I what I seem to myself - the same?

Is the I ...I feel the I that's real?

Even with feelings I'm a bit of an atheist.

I don't even know if it's I who feels.

Alvaro De Campos, (Heteronym of Fernando Pessoa)

THE JADED SENSATIONALIST